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My friends call me Jojo. I've lived most of my life in Washington State, but then after graduating high school, I was dragged down with my mom and brother to live Arizona. Major climate change, I'll tell you that! The heat, I find, is unbearable. Most of the time, I lock myself up in my air conditioned home, only to leave for work, to workout, and to enjoy nighttime with friends. And no, to all you Twilight fans, I am not making this up. I really did live in Washington State most of my life and then moved down to Arizona. All coincidental. I found it pretty fascinating how "Bella" lived in the same places I did!

Honestly, I have no idea how to describe myself. I know that sounds ridiculous, but it's true. My own description of myself tends to be the opinions of others and not my own. My friends say I'm sweet, caring, loving, "too much", goofy, a nerd, ridiculous, and confusing. I guess that's a typical description of every girl on the face of this planet, right?

If I had to describe myself in my own words, I'd honestly say that I always sacrifice my happiness or plans to try to make others around me happy. Then, in the end, I always tend to make someone else unhappy with me and it gets me so frustrated on a daily basis. I'm mature for my age because of the way I was brought up. I'm someone people go to whenever they need to talk things out or need advice. I guess that makes me a great listener and advice-giver.

Socializing has always been a challenge for me. I've always been shy and shut myself off from conversing with most people when I was younger. Therefore causing my pathetic attempt to socialize with friends and new acquaintances. It's hard for me to open up to people...extremely hard. I honestly blame the way I was raised when I was younger. I only have a few people in my life who I have opened up to and feel comfortable doing so because I know they won't give me lectures or anything. They'll just listen, sympathize, and just be there for me without really inputting their opinion about my matters. I like that and that's why those few people are a big part of my life, whether in real life or on the computer. I hate public speaking. I'd rather get my tongue pierced or something than do any public speaking. And for those of you who know me well, you know needles scare the living crap out of me and allowing my tongue to be pierced before agreeing to speak publicly is huge.

I keep my honest, caring, loving friends close and my family closer. I'm an independent chick who hates to rely on people for anything. I'm sort of emotional. When I'm happy, I'm ecstatic! When I'm mad, I'm pissed and will be for a while. When I'm sad and depressed, I remain that way for a long amount of time. I tend to hold grudges if what happened was because of something they did. I don't back down until the other person initiates the apologizing.

I'm extremely loyal to those who give off the same type of loyalty towards me. I've been told that I have a heart of gold because regardless of how I feel and the sacrifices I make (even if it affects me negatively), if an action I do will make someone happy, I'll do it. I've been known to randomly, out-of-the-blue shower those close friends with gifts for no apparent reason. I guess it's just my way of saying "thanks for being a loyal friend." I show my appreciation through actions, not words. Therefore explaining the random gift-giving. Haha!

With that being said: I despise rude, hateful, negative, judgmental, bitchy people. If you don't show me the same respect and love that I give to you, I can hold a grudge forever. If you are one of those type of people, I have little patience for you. Once I see for myself that you emit any of those qualities, I zone you out and it's as if you've never existed. And if you do me wrong somehow, I get disappointed in you instantly and realize that my life could be better off without you. I can turn cold and then you're out of my life...memories and all.